Becky Boo’s Weightloss for LIFE

Hi everyone. I can’t believe the weekend is over already. Back to work tomorrow. I am hoping to go to the city pool this Friday if I am off, weather permitting of course. I got a great night’s sleep and got up and did some laundry, cleaned out the litter boxes, took a bunch of junk to the trash and sprayed the weeds in my back alley. While I was out there doing that, LeRoy was in the garage scouting out the head off of his old lion stuffie. I had to chase him around to get it and I actually had to pinch his ear a little bit. I didnt want to hurt him but we all know what happened last time he had a stuffed animal. I told him that unless he had somehow raised the 3 grand for another surgery, he had best relinquish the lion’s head I threw that sucker away. Then my mom and I went to Target (again today hee hee hee) and I got a cute pair of grey striped capri pants. Then we went to Trader Joe’s. My mom had never been there and she really liked it. We both just got one bag each of stuff cause she still wanted to go to Crate n Barrel and we hadn’t eaten lunch yet either. I had given her back one of her hot/cold food bags though so she had that in her car. We went to some deli and ordered sanwhiches and fruit cups. I accidentally took the wrong sandwhich and felt really bad when I returned it. With one bite taken out of it… Ooops. They forgot the avocado off my sandwhich but I saved face by just sucking it up without the avocado since I had wasted a whole sandwhich already… The fruit cup it came with was so good. Had red grapes, cantelope, honeydew, strawberries and mango. I got some oriental rice crackers at Trader Joe’s (1/2 cup for 110 calories). I had some of that while I waited for the mini meatloaf my mom brought me to heat up. My mom suprised me with a little meatloaf when she came to get me. She made one for her and my dad and made a small one for me. I have a friend whose power has been shut off for a week or so and she has been staying here for abt 4-5 days. I split my mini meatloaf with her. It was like a big hamburger so I just cut it in fourths. Yum ! Well, I am actually boring myself here Ready to get back to my lower end of my calorie range this week. Weekend has been the upper end of my range Sat and Sun and then my high day Fri. hope you all have a great week.

Hi everyone. Boy, I am sleepy. I went to bed probably around 1 in the morning. I had fun with my friend. It was storming really badly early this morning so I didnt sleep very well. I came home, ate and drank some coffee then decided I wanted to go look at Lowes for a wooden closest organizer shoe organizer thingeee. Well, I ended up going to Target and Old Navy too. Got a brown cotton skirt at Old Navy and some housestuff at Target. I did find a the closest shoe organizer thing at Lowes too. I first had one in my cart that was almost $60 but I walked a little further down the aisle and there was another brand, same size and came color, cherry wood, and it was the last one and on clearnace for $22.98 and had been $46.00 !!! So out with the one that costs more and in with the cheaper one ! I also got a new garden hose cause mine had some holes in it. Probably cause I left it out all winter and it froze or something. Ooops. So, I came home and unloaded everything. That darn LeRoy got my Arnold Select Sandwhich thins off the counter and ate aLL six of them that were left. Grrr. So I was going to meet the ex for Mexican. I left and bought some more sandwhich thins before I met him. I ate pork carnitas and it was so so so good. I have logged everything and I still have about 134 calories leftover… I put the shoe organizer thing together all by myself. It didnt even take too terribly long and it is now in my closet with my shoes in it. It is cool because it is meant to go with all this other built in closet stuff so u can add stuff to it. Stack them, connect them, so if I want to add to it little by little as time goes on, I can ! Pretty neat I think. Now I am watching the Bucketlist and texting my friend to tell her I am too sleepy to go hang out with her tonight. Plus she wants to drink beer and I already did that lastnight and am not up to it again tonight. It is super hot today adn this evening and I am contemplating turning the ac back on. It got up over 90 degrees here today. Seems like it is too early in the year for that temperature. Anywho, I stayed off the scale today and plan to tl next Friday again~~~

Good morning everyone Well, I did reall well with my food choices yesterday. I drank water all night long. I woke up and let the pup out. Also, found out I got my tuition check from work and my co worker is going to deposit it for me so I dont have to drive all the way up there (35 minutes away). YAY! So, I pulled the scale out of the closet. Two pound loss! So I got back to where I was before and then plus one more ! YIPPPIEEE ! So, I now weigh 214. Fifteen pounds til I am in Onederland. I will get there. Thanks so much to everyone who convinced me I could stay off the scale. It really helped me to stay focused on lowering my calories this week thinking how much I wanted that scale to be my friend today ! And, it was I need to pay bills now since today is payday. Then I need to head to the store for a few things. Then tonight I am headed to a friend’s house to hang out and stay overnight. I hope you all have a wonderful Friday and a GREAT weekend ~

Hi everyone Well, another day is coming to a close and no scale for me since I slipped up and stepped on Saturday (twice). I am nervous and excited to get on tomorrow morning. Is it possible that I feel smaller today? Well, I do. Not sure if I look smaller or not ha ha ha. But, I feel it. Have had a good food day today. Made a great salad for lunch. I am not sure what I am having for dinner yet. I came home from work and mopped the back room where the dogs have to stay when I am gone all day and it rains—they dont go to the bathroom inside but just from there greasy doggy bodies roaming all over and coming in and out the back door that is in the room with the rain and mud—it was looking pretty fierce in there. It needed a moppin’… Well, I was cleaning the mop out, first time EVER used (and bought a bunch of refills for it) and I busted it ! Guess I dont know my own strength Or maybe it is just a shitty mop ! Oh well. I am not upset abt it being broken, just dont like to be wasteful and fill the landfills cause it is not repairable. Anywho, I am off work tomorrow through Sunday and very happy abt this. Seems like when you are going to be off a few days, u have to WORK really hard the few days before it to make up for being gone… One of those days But maybe I burned up a bunch of calories being so busy ?!?!?!? I can hope … Well, I am off to read some blogs and think about dinner. Hope you all have a great night full or even better choices ~~~

Goodnight everyone. I am on for time # 2 today. I had a really good food day. I had lots of cherries, a turkey and cheese sandwhich on this Arnold Select Sandhich thin stuff (it is really good and only 100 cals for the whole flat roll thing), a serving of cheex it party mix, oh, some miracle whip on the sandwhich, a few sugar free werther’s originals, some kidney beans, some grilled pineapple (yummo!), some mini chicken n cilantro wontons with sauce, AND I tried spaghetti squash. I say no thank u to the spaghetti squash. But hey, I prepared it and tried it and probably wont be trying it again unless prepared by a chef who knows how to serve it… My calorie total came in at a little over 1300. I am at my lower end of my range again ! Yipppiiieee First time in a while, over a week actually. So, I can only hope when I finally hop on that scale Friday morning, it is at least one pound back down to my 215… Or a maintain… Just NOT up ! Alot of stressful stuff has been going on with a few of my close friends and it is sort of affecting me. Stressing me out a bit but I am trying to stay focused on other things cause I cant take on everyone’s problems, it will drive me crazy and I have to much going on to take it all on. Anywho, I hope u r all doing well and continue to make GREAT choices ~~~

Good afternoon buddies ! I am proud to report I have still not stepped on the scale. I know it has only been a few days but I was getting on there at least once a day, if not twice or three times before… This is quite liberating, I dont know why I didnt do this before… I have heard the scale whispering to me, “Get on, it won’t hurt. And you won’t even have to tell them. It will be our little secret.” Nope, not doing it. Friday morning will be here before I know it. I am curious to see what it will tell me. I am going to try and stick to this once a week weigh in too. If the scale is up again, I am going back to daily weigh ins though. If it is a maintain or a loss, I will stick to weekly, how does that sound? Pretty good to me ! I am doing great with my food today. I have had loads of cherries, this flat bread thing with turkey and cheese and one 1/2 cup serving of cheez it party mix. It is pretty good. I still have over 1000 cals for the rest of the day. I dont know what is up with me but i have been really wanting the upper level of my calorie raNGE THIS PAST WEEK OR TWO. Darn caps ! I do that alot, dont I?… I can’t blame it all on TOM cause, while I expect him in a week or two, it wouldnt be affecting lastweek… Hmm. I dont know. I am not going to overthink it. I just need to get back to eating REALLY healthy foods—fruits, veggies, salads, I know what to do. Alrighty, hope u r all doing well  and making good choices !

Good morning buddies I am proud to report that I have completed another day with NO scale. And Debbi, u were right, it gets easier every day ! I am like, scale what? Who? I don’t need him … I went over my cals a bit yesterday, not too badly but more than I planned. however, I am on it today and have had oatmeal and cherries so far this morning. I also brought a BIG bag of edamame with me to work today. I am still tired from this weekend. I have carpal tunnel pretty badly and the 5 hours of grilling really did a number on my hands, wrists and forearms. they hurt. Bad. I also stayed up WAY too late on Sunday night. I had a BUNCH of fun though so, all in all, it was worth it Then went to my parents around 1 pm. There was SOO much rain yesterday that streets were flooded all over. For once my town didnt get it the worst—but my mom’s town and sister’s got a TON of rain. sleepy today but got a really good night’s sleep. I am excited to have a three day weekend again this week. Since Monday was already my off day, I get Friday off this week and u all know how much I LOVE a 3 day weekend Well, I hope u r all doing well~~~

Hi everyone. WHEW! It was hot, sticky and BUSY at work today. I had the residents at the grocery store before 9 am and back before 9:30 ! I was on a mission… We started cooking and BBQ’ing as soon as we got back to the group home. I BBQ’ed for about 5 hours ! We had another group home over and it was a great time. Everyone helped out the two of us staff and it was just wonderful, really Now I am exhausted. I am certain I wokred off and SWEAT off tons o calories ! I am still on track with food today and will be partaking in some beers this evening. I feel in control again today and I am thinking less about the scale ! And it was awesome because the rain waited til we were finished with our BBQ and all cleaned up and relaxing wating the Cardinals game inside beofre it came. YAY. I am home now and I usually dont get involved in the hub bub on here cause well, to be honest with you, my own life and my job working with persons with chronic and persistent mental illness leads me to want to really just surround myself with positive and supportive people and I tend to avoid the negative and attention seeking folks that scamper in and around… This is a social networking/support site. The blogs are written by individuals, for these individuals for a variety of different reasons: to document their own progress, to gain and get support, to diary their own life and for whatever other reason they see fit. I personally write everyday (only have missed maybe 3 days since November 21st 2008) because I find that I hold better accountability for my actions when I know that I am going to be documenting it so openly later on. For me. I also have gained valuable insight and inspiration by keeping up with others and receiving feedback on my own personal thoughts and even just in my day to day life with co workers, friends, family, dogs, ex’s, u get the drill This is the thing, food is not the MAIN reason we are struggling with our weight. Life is. Food is the drug and life is the trigger. Whether we eat to celebrate or eat to fill a void, life and ALL of the things that go into it, however trivial they may seem to others who may be lacking somewhere or missing the compassion gene or acceptance gene, is what is happening while we struggle with this battle. I have always been a confident person, someone who doesn’t follow a crowd and at the same time, someone who does not jump to conclusions about others or judge others, certainly when I have not ever walked a mile in their shoes. I dont see color, race, age, gender, socio-economic status, sexual preference… I see people. I LOVE people. That is my business and my life. While I know there are people who have always struggled to fit in and have always felt as if they were a bit of an underdog and find they were never picked for the team, there comes a time when one must accept things as they are, decide what their role in all of this is and start thinking about how they may need to change in order to find happiness in themselves and in life and to stop seeing the successful and proud in a negative light. I for one do not want any of my accomplishments, and I have several, to be underscored because of someone else’s insecurities. We are all people here, in reallife and to infinity and beyond. I accept everyone who would like to be accepted and can find a friend just about anywhere and always have plenty of smiles to share with those who may be lacking. I have lots of love and happiness to share so, if those of you who are feeling left out, wasting time trying to keep score and missing the point of positive support, please, hit me up There is plenty of cheer to go around. Big hugs to you all and I am so happy to be off work tomorrow !

Good morning buddies I successfully stayed off the scale this morning. It was like the scale in the closet and myself were magnets, pulling together but I kept saying to myself, “If you can lose the weight, u can stay off the scale.” I think I thought this to  myself 3-5 times—just while taking my quick early morning potty break ! But then I just went into auto pilot, fed the animals, got myself ready and left.  I already feel less bloated from last week so I don’t need any kind of affirmation from the scale to tell me this each day. I CAN AND WILL stay off the scale. There is one under the shelf here in my office that we use to weight the residents once a month (if I can do it for them, why not me just once a month?) and there is one in the staff bathroom. That will be the most difficult one to stay off… No, I will NOT get on it. I will not weigh in til Friday. So far just had some coffee this morning. We are getting ready to go to the grocery store to get the stuff for our bbq. Supposed to rain this afternoon and evening so I had to leave my beasts inside today again. Well, here is to another GREAT and successful day (scale free and on track!). Happy Sunday

Hi everyone. It is a little after 6 pm and I am proud to report I am back on track today ! I was looking at my calorie log lastnight and realized, I was not doing well with my calories last week. Everyday was towards the high end of my calorie range and I had three very high days right in a row. No wonder I gained a pound. I am conscious of it now and I have done very well today and feel more confident again. I keep thinking about that darn scale in the closet lol. And hoping that I do what I told myself and STAY off of it til Friday. There is a scale in the bathroom at work too… I WILL stay off of those darned scales dammit ! No, I really will. I want to have control over that too, food and the scale. I can do it. I WILL do it ! I am thinking about dinner now and what I will have. I am bbq’ing for the residents tomorrow and I am excited. They love when I cook for them and I enjoy helping them to celebrate holidays and life in general. Sometimes they dont know what to think of me—they are not used to having someone so silly in their lives and sometimes I have to remind them that I am being silly and it is ok to laugh at me !!! The newest lady sometimes looks like she is choking back her smiles and laughter and today I was like, you can laugh, it is funny Hee Hee Hee. Alrighty, I am off to read some blogs and figure dinner out. Happy Saturday night to you all ~~~