Becky Boo’s Weightloss for LIFE

Hi everyone. I just got home from eating Sushi out with a friend. Yum. It wasnt as good as the place I went last week but a strong contender… I had my first day of all the new residents (grp home is FULL now) and working by myself with a full schedule. I was BUSY BUSY BUSY today but, since I dont get a lunch break anymore, I took an hour to work on my presentation for class tomorrow. I got it done and that is what is important. I am forcing myself to wear tank tops outside of my house. I know my arms are MY issue and no one else looks and feels about them the same way I do but my arms have always been my trouble spot, even when I was a full fledged athlete. I have always been self conscious about them. So, I am facing my “fear” and just doing it. So far I have worn a tank in public twice YAY ! Seems so silly, I know. I am very excited for this weekend, esp since I am off Fri-Sun. My friend who lives in Wisconsin is coming down and we are all going out Friday night. Love having so many fun things to look forward to. I hope you are all doing well ~~~

Hi everyone. I was dreading going to school cause the weather is just too nice to be inside all night but he let us out at 7:45 ! Class is supposed to go til 10:30 ! We havent been there later than 8:30 yet Loving that part of summer school. I wont be loving it starting tomorrow when I must begin to do REAL homework ! I have been doing awesome with food this past week. I am now at 1400 or so cals a day and feeling really confident about  my weightloss. I went to my friend’s for dinner lastnight and I saw her two weeks ago but when I walked in she said she had to take a dbl take cause she wasnt sure if it was me or not ! YIPPPIEEE ! So, I am just not struggling with food at all and realy havent this whole month. Something has made a huge shift with me and food is no longer controlling my day. I mean, this has been a struggle for so long and to not have an issue with it (at least for the time being) is TOTALLY liberating. I really feel free of the addiction at this time. I cant really describe it, it is just really great right now. I think I just HEART summertime… Maybe that is it ? I wish it were summer all the time I had an interesting weekend with Recycled Boy. Friday was awesome, then I went to the pool with my sister both Sat and Sunday. I went to the BBQ with Recycled Boy Saturday night. They were lighting (illegal) fireworks off all night and he lit one in a beer bottle and didnt know it would explode… Well, glass rained all over all of us and like 5 minutes later he is covered in blood cause it cut his face. Lordy… I had to help him clean it up and the crazy part is it didnt even hurt him and you cant even see a mark… Strange. Then when we left he kinda got weird on me. I dont know what it was but I think as we get closer he is starting to worry about my ex and if we continue to see eachother, eventually that is something he will have to face. I have nothing to lose but I guess he is thinking more about it that he has been letting on cause he mentioned it again Sat night and he was saying all kinds of crazy stuff and I left and went home and texted him that what he was saying was making me sad and he told me he is a loser and I shouldnt even want to be with him and what about the ex and blah blah blah. Well, I wasnt drunk but RB was so I just went to bed and the next afternoon I got a text from him apologizing. I basically told him that if he is out, let me know cause I need to shut off these feelings, that I cant and dont want to make anyoone do anything they dont want to do and if he doesnt want to hang out anymore, then that is his choice. He apologized again and assured me that is not the case. I understand where he is coming from but I am willing to face it as it comes and I guess being the guy that was friends with my ex is a tuf place to be in. The night before that he opened up to me more about his struggle and fears with his MS. This is REALLY big you guys as he typically pretends that there is nothing going on with it and that he is perfectly fine all the time, sometimes even not taking his  medicine for it. He asked me why God struck him with this illness. He was really upset. I told him that I have no idea what it is like to be him, and said perhaps it is because he knew you could handle it. I asked him if he was scared for his future and he said yes. I think he feels less worthy due to his illness. I think he may be going through an exacerbation right now and he knows that the damage caused during this time is not repairable and that must be one shitty thing to deal with. I am so thankful that he is trusting me more with is true thoughts and feelings. He needs someone to talk to, to not feel so alone and scared. My bff said perhaps God put is together for this very reason. I dunno. I once referred to him as my wubbie, like a little kid with his blanket. I mean, this has been going on for ten years. How did we end up in a different town than we both grew up in, in walking distance from one another and neither of us knew for like the first year the other one lived here? I dunno. I cant quit him. Lord almighty, I am hooked—hahaha. I dunno, he cant act out the way he did the other night again though. I left in tears and cried myself to sleep. And to hear him call himself a loser and why would I wanna even be there with him. Ugh ! It was heart wrenching, it really was. The therpapist in me wants to help him get that self esteem up but I dont wanna overdo it… Baby steps Well, I could talk about him all night long but this is getting rediculous so I wont Talk about one rambling blog …

Good evening buddies. This was a long HOT and fun weekend. I went to the pool again today and now have a for REAL tan. Love it ! Went to dinner at a friends tonight. Missed her as she has been out of town for over a wk and she is one of my besties and we needed our FIX I bought another new suit at KMart today. Only $20 and it is really cute. Back to work and school tomorrow… Had a really good calorieswise weekend and I am so confident that Friday will be the one you guys. The day where I see Onderland for the first time since 2002. TOM came yesterday morning and I am doing awesome with cals so there is no way I wont see that 1## !!! I hope you all had a GREAT weekend. Big Hugs to you all

Happy Saturday to you all ! I had a really fun time lastnight. My friend came over and we chit chatted and then drank some adult beverages on the front porch. My neighbor and Recyclced Boy ended up coming over too and it was fun just sitting around enjoying summer. I had a good food day yesterday. It seems so much easier to stay on track when you see how that scale is going to treat you when you do I REALLY wanna see that scale under 200 next time I hop on it—but TOM will probably be here this coming week or the next one, depending on how he feels… But I have lost with him here in full force so I wont let him get me down I have quit having those planned super high days. I was bringing my cals up, on purpose, to between 3-4000 cals once a week. I am not doing that anymore cause I plateaued a few weeks so I am keeping my cals, on avg, lastwk, at a little over 1400 for each day. Some were lower and some were higher. I am still planning on attending my friend’s bday bbq tonight so after the pool I need to head to the store and grab those turkey mignons and a bday card to put her gc for a mani and pedi in. I think I am just rambling on… Ha Ha Ha. I am REALLY enjoying this summer so far and feel REALLY good. I did NOTHING last summer. I didnt even go swimming ONE time and spent much of the summer inside being miserable. So unlike ME. I have always lived for summer, camping, swimming, FUN. Last year was a wake up call buddies. I have turned my WHOLE life around. I am so happy to be back to me again. I LOVE to laugh and smile and spread my happiness. I am in LOVE with life again—have a GREAT day

Good Morning Buddies. Well, even with not getting on the scale all week, I was RIGHT on with what I thought I lost this week. 3 pounds down for a total of 76 pounds down and I am at 202 with Onederland lurking right around the CORNER ! Bring it on I hope you all have a great day and wonderful weekend

Hi everyone. Well, I was asleep by 9:30 lastnight and felt like a million bucks when I woke up this morning. No more belly issues—YAY ! I have done awesome with food today and stayed REALLY busy at work. I was buying a new shirt after work when I heard that Michael Jackson had died. I wasnt really suprised. U know, I have a hard time saying it is really sad, being that he is a pedophile, but it is sad cause he had some serious issues/demons and at least he can be at peace now. Anywho, I am excited for the weekend off of work. My friend is coming by tomorrow after work and hanging with me on the porch then Saturday my friend is having herself a birthday BBQ and I am going to bring the turkey mignons I want her to try cause they r only 220 cals a piece and yummy and filling Always happy to share healthier and tasty options. She just had a baby 3 months ago n is working on losing the last 15 pounds. It was 100 degrees in the shade today so feeling the tiredness from that. I am feeling positively about weighing in tomorrow. I have not gotten on that scale still so I really can only go by the way I look n feel and I feel as if I have lost—hoping for 3 pounds ! Well, I hope you are all doing well, making good choices and HAPPY WEEKEND !

Hi everyone. I left work a few hours ago cause, and sorry for TMI, I spent my last hour there in and out of the bathroom. I think it was something I ate… I was sweating profusely for hours and thought I was going to pass out. Then, after I talked to my boss and she said it was fine to go, I left and then had to get out of the car and come running RIGHT back in. So I did make it home and called off school and am feeling much better. Man, I mean, I could feel my stomach moving and my intestines clenching. Awful. This will be the first day I miss school since being in grad school for 3 semesters. I am kind of disappointed but it is what it is. . . Plus I loaned someone my $125 book and kind of wanted it back but I know she will give it back to me next time. Work sux but I am very fortunate to have my job. I am just not going to think about work unless I am there. Ok so I had decided I was over talking to and hanging out with Recylced Boy, that I was throwing him in the bin forever… Well, I quit calling him and texting him for abt a week. Well, what do you know? Monday morning, 8:15 am and he is texting me. Hmm… This continues for a few days and so I finally decided to hang out with him again over at some mutual friend’s lastnight. He was the MOST nice he has EVER been to me, being very attentive and chatty—planning a trip to Lake of the Ozarks with our friends and asking me to come in August… I am thinking, you know, there is def some truth to appearing hard to get or “not that interested.” Usu I was always the one initiating our time together. I am not trying to play games with him or anything, just pointing out that I am not down with being strung along or the one putting effort into something that may or may not even be anything and it is interesting that a week after I quit contacting him, he started to et ahold of me … Men I am still not even sure how I feel about him but I know that I had a lot of fun hanging out with him lastnight, so I am not going to have any expectations — I will just see where it goes. I had a salad and some thin crust pizza for lunch today—right before I started getting really sick. Not sure if that was it or not. So, I am good on calories so far and will prob just have some broth for dinner since my stomach is upset. I am thinking I will prob lose about 2-3 pounds this week. I know TOM bloat will be here soon so who knows… I am not in a race so it is cool either way. I am positive I have been doing too well for it to have gone up, soo… And I am still not getting on that damned scale I am going to go read some bloggies and see how u all r doing. Big Hugs ~~~

Good evening everyone. … Ok, I had to stop cause there was a firefly/lightning bug flying around in here and I had to rescue him and throw him back outside Well, I had ONE busy day today. I usually go in late on days after I have school but that is ALL over since I wont have a day staff pretty soon so I just went in to get used to it. I was pretty much busy the whole day, no time to even breathe it seemed like. I FINALLY got a schedule made and also made one for the other grp home. It was a struggle but they are DONE !!! YAY! I am making a turkey mignon for dinner, not sure what I will have with it. This one is Butterball but I also know they have them at Aldis right now so I may go there Thursday and get somemore of their FitnActive brand. They are sooo good and only 220 calories. I find I dont eat enough meat so I try to find things that are not just chicken… Gets boring. I am happy because I will be off July 3-5. My friend who lives in Wisconsin will be in town and I was afraid I wouldnt get to see her but I worked out the schedule so I will be around and this makes me VERY happy. I have school again tomorrow night. I cant decide if this week is going by slow or avg… I have stayed off that damned scale so far since Friday and I am excited for weigh in on Friday. I have n idea what to expect. I have been doing pretty good with my cals so I wish myself WELL It is over 100 degress here and VERY sunny. Makes me kind of miss the rain from the last few weeks… Maybe not. I was beginning to wonder of we shouldnt start work on an ark I hope you are all doing well and making good choices ~~~

Good afternoon everyone. I got up today and headed to the pool for two hours. While in the pool I exercised both my arms and legs for about an hour. Then I laid out for about an hour and headed home. It is REALLY hot out there and I wanted to mow my grass before getting ready for school. I am so glad my yard is small cause it is devastatingly hot out there and I dont know if I could have stood it one second more. I ended the mow with the hose and soaking myself for about 10-15 minutes in a lawn chair then headed in for a shower. Now I am chilling before school and getting ready to blow dry my hair. I have the dogs inside cause it is just too hot. So far so good as far as food goes today and I also think I got some good exercise in at the pool and in mowing my yard. Plus, my tan is coming in quite nicely I will only have a tan on half my body though cause I think it is weird to lay on my stomach at the pool… I am a freak, I know ! Ha Ha Ha. Well, I am going to read some blogs and then blow dry my hair. Hope you all are having a Happy Monday ~~~

H everyone. Well, I had another semi high day today after already having one on Thursday. Though I must admit they are not as high as I HAD been doing. I am getting too close to goal to have those 3000-4000 food and beer days anymore … I started the work day with 2 servings of the new fruit and yogurt Special K cereal and some coffee. Then, before lunch I cut up a red and a yellow bell pepper and had a snack cause I knew we’d be eating lunch later since I had to meet with the resident and her family about her having to move out. So, eventhough I knew I would be going out to dinner with my dad tonight, I went to KFC. I actually did pretty well there. I had a chicken breast, green beans and part of the mashed potatoes n gravy and biscuit. It was all around 800 calories for lunch and around 260 breakfast. On a regular day, I would have just had a really light dinner and done well. But my dad wanted Mexican food so that is what we had. And to be honest, I actually did really well there too. I had some chips and salsa and then a small chicken quesadilla. I didnt get any refired beans or rice. My dinner total was around 790-800. So, my total for the whole day is about 1960. Not the highest “high” day I have ever had but I could have only had the one meal out and done really well. I will be back on track tomorrow, for sure I really want to be under 200 on Friday. I am not really exercising and so that is why I am trying to keep my cals low. Right now, for the last 7 days, my average daily calorie intake is 1440. I need to get my butt back into gear and take those hour long walks again this week cause that is when I lost those 4 and 5 pounds a week right in a row… I have to put the effort in to see the results… Today was stressful telling the resident that has to move and then thinking about how busy I will be this week. I worked on my july staff schedule for 3-4 hours today, had whiteout all over my hands and face, went through like 5-6 paper schedules and STILL dont have a schedule to use… I was flaming hot and frustrated after all that. I put it down and will work on it next week. Well, I hope you all had a great weekend and are making good choices—I wish you all the VERY best for a truly GREAT week ahead. I hope for nice weather tomorrow so I can head back to the pool in the morning. Big Hugs to you ALL ~~~