Becky Boo’s Weightloss for LIFE

Hi everyone. I weighed in today at 189, so not my mini goal but SOOO close I have now lost 89 pounds and am outta the 190s ! I wanted to have met that mini goal by today but that is cool, I will take one pound away Wow, 100 total pounds down is so close in the horizon. YES ! ! ! I am feeling so much better today, just a lot of coughing going on now. I have a party to go to tonight cause a friend is in town visiting from Virginia Beach so her sis is having her a big party to celebrate. RB is friends with my friend’s sister’s boyfriend so he will be there too Welcome to small town America, folks Hee Hee Hee. It is going to be a super fun party with lots of tippy cup action, washers and beer pong YAY ! ………I just got a text that one of my staff is in ICU. I have no idea why and I am worried. I pray that she is ok, man that is just awful. I went over and hung out with my friend and her baby on her deck lastnight. When the guys were down with band practice at RB’s house, they came over there and hung out too. When RB left, my friend noted how different RB acts towards me now. Normal. I, of course, stayed over at his house cause apparently I forgot how to sleep in my own bed… I left though cause I couldnt quit coughing. This morning I have cleaned litter boxes, started some laundry and fed the brood. I am getting ready for lunch with my bff from college that I have not seen in 1 1/2 years or her baby… I am excited to see them. Then I am off to think of something to bring to the party for a side dish. I may just make a veggie tray. Nice n safe. Probably what I will do. I dont like to prepare food here cause of the pet hair, ya know? I mean, I will eat it but I dont expect anyone else to ! Well, I am pleased with the one pound loss, I REALLY am. I am still doing this and the changes r still happening. I hope u all have a LOVELY Friday and I am off til next Friday ~~~

Hey Everyone. I didnt get the best sleep lastnight. I fell asleep EARLY on the couch and then headed to bed. But once I got to bed, I couldnt sleep… So I got up and took a shower and that helped. I slept on and off til about 1 am. I woke up and saw that RB had called at like 12:30 am. It was his birthday and he had gone over to a friend’s house. Ex-ie was there. I think he is finally getting to the point where my ex is no longer seen as a barrier to him. It is like he is finally irritated with him that he has been letting him stand in the way of he and I. He even made some comment to me lastnight about it “being time to face the music.” I dont know why, but that just made me smile. I swear, sometimes grown men can act like ittle girls… Or is it just the ones I know… Hmmm. Something to think about. Well, I am happy to be off for the next 8 days but sorry that it has to start off with me being sick. I have a lot planned and I dont wanna be sick Hopefully it passes soon. I have been waiting on this loan check from school for over a month. I REALLY need this check. I have bills to pay and it was gonna be a big help. I need to contact them right after this and see what is going on. I have called or emailed them just about everyday for a week and I am sure they are getting sick of me. . . Other than a few high days over the weekend, I am right on with calories for this week. I did get on the scale today. It was 191, so we will see what kind of weigh n I have tomorrow. Could be a maintain, we will see. Im hoping for a mini goal meet, but just not sure with what it said today… No worries. Alrighty, I need to email school then I will be back to read blogs. Hope you are all doing well

Hi Everyone. I am off work today—sick. I couldnt sleep lastnight so at about 2 am, I called off work. I dunno if it is allergies or cold. I am hopinh allergies and took an allergy pill a bit ago n am having some coffee. Monday I hing out all night long with RB. We had a lot of fun. When I stay over there, we usually wake up really early and that is what happened yesterday. We watched a BUNCH of movies and drank coffee for hours. Then I ran to get my friend’s grandson from her daughter so her daughter could do more work on her house while my friend is still in the psych hospital. Since there is no power over there, she cant take the baby with her. I took him to run errands with me and he was so good ! He went to the mall with me and I got the CUTEST shirt ever at Charlotte Russe (sp?) and a new pair of jeans. I still cant believe it when I go in a store and can fit the clothes. Then I got home and took pix of the baby and when I saw the lap of the person he was sitting on, I could not believe it when I thought about who it belonged to… Me. I dont even recognize her. Hmmm. I am gonna post a pic of the pic of my new shirt. And, it isnt black ! I am trying new things Well, I took RB out to eat for his birthday. He was totally weird about me paying but I insisted. It is his birthday. Get this, my ex called him right before I came over to see if he wanted to go out for his bday… He told him no, he was going out on his actual bday (today) but really it was becuz he was with me. Grrr. It is all so strange feeling to me. But after dinner, I dropped him back off and he looked at me like I was crazy. I was like, what? He goes, “Uhm, arent u coming in to hang out? I thought u were?” HaHaHa. So we watched a bajillion more movies and then I fell asleep on the couch. And then was up every hour due to feeling sick. I called off work at like 2 am cause I was getting no sleep. So here I am resting on my couch with only one day left of work now between now and my 8 day vacay … I missed u guys yesterday when my internet was down ! Happy Hump Day

OFF that scale !!! O me, O my… Why am I scale hoppin again this darn week? I do not know It is sayin 193 but I am not sweating it. I just have been wanting to get on it lately so I am going to let myself do wat I want… I fell asleep on my couch watching Big Love on DVR lastnight. 8:30-ish. so not like me but boy, I was tired ! Then I moved to my bed and a friend called so I stayed up til about 10 something and finally dozed off for good shortly there after. Needed the sleep, that is for sure It didn’t feel like Monday agin this week. When I work the weekend, I typically have Monday off but I put myself off for Tuesday this schedule. RB is on vacation all week. he always takes vacation the week of his birthday. He forgot I was working today and actually just called and wanted me to go to Garden Ridge with him to look for lawn chairs. Funny how much can change in the matter of a week… Ha Ha Ha. It all just seems so silly, being the age that he and I are. Seems so silly and adolescent. All stemming from the ex-ie, I know this. I think he is finally choosing me over his friendship with the ex-ie. I dunno. Like I said tho, I am not letting myself get bogged down by the what ifs of this situation anymore. If it becomes more, it does. If it stays this way (as friends), that is cool too. I am not limiting myself or my options on this one. I will be 30 in December and this time of my life, it is going to be about  ME. And I do not feel selfish or bad about it. I help others around me in so many different ways that I need to remember to look out for number too So, here’s to it !!! I am right on with calories today, as was I yesterday. Plus with all the cleaning and activity of moving crap outta my friend’s house lastnight with her daughter, I kno I burnt some serious calories doing that. I was so happy to finish both of my papers while at work yesterday that I didnt mind helping out with the cleaning for a few hours right after work. I am running to school after work tonight to turn in my final papers then back home to manage my zoo and head over to RB’s. He is getting new lawn chairs today. he is currently sporting some very FANCY (not really) wooded and vinyl office chairs circa 1987 on his back porch. Bahahaha. I am not going to lie, they are wayyy past their last leg. Last time the guys were over there getting rowdy, one just collapsed right under one of them. Freakin hilarious—cause no one wa shurt. But seriously, they r gross. Well, two more days of work this week for this one, then off for 8 days. I give that one a TRIPLE Holla ! Hope you are all having a HAPPY Monday ~~~

Good morning, Buddies o’ mine. How r u all today? I am taking a break at work. Been busy all morning gettign caught up on stuff. And maybe I cleaned my handbag out too Welp, I lied and got on that darn scale this morning ! Where did my effin will power to stay off it go? Okay, how about starting TODAY, I wont get on it til Friday? Bahahaha ! I dont know why I am so chipper today. Something super awful happened yesterday, but she is okay now and in a good place so I guess that is why I am not feeling the bummers rights now. One of my super stressful friends who has turned mor eliek into a client of mine the last few years, she tried to kill herself yesterday. I went straight from work to the ER lastnight. Her daughter just dropped her off and left, WTF? So I stayed for three hours and made sure I was there for the psych eval (wanted to make sure REAL facts were given and also to make sure she signed a release of info for me since I am really all she has) and wanted to make sure they admitted her to the psych ward. I kindly told my friend that if she tried to refuse, I would sign the involuntary petition cause I couldnt let her go back home and I had to work today and tomorrow. Ohh, it is just awful but I am so very relieved she is safe for now. I dont wanna talk about it anymore, just had to get it out. I went home and was couching it, eating cottage cheese and wheat thins, when a friend called and told me to get my butt out and see her. So I did. And RB was there, so it was a bonus Why did I walk right in that bar and he was RIGHT there and I chose to ignore him ??? Bahahaha. So later on I was outside smoking and he came up to me and asked why… I just felt liek it And he was SOOO not being scretive about me lastnight in front of all kinds of people. Even his own brother was there… And he wanted me to go sit with him and his brother and another guy that is friends with me, RB and ex-ie. I said I would then didnt hee hee hee. So he left them and came and sat with em and my friends the rest of the night. I was suprised for sure. So now I am at work and staying busy and thinking about how I have a lot more to still do today and also write the two papers that are due tomorrow… And working on only about 3 hours of sleep. Why do I do this to myself ??? I actually dont feel too bad at all. Just a wee bit sleepy. Well, I have blabbed on enuf randomly here. Hope u r all enjoying ur Sunday and making GREAT choices ~~~

Hi Everyone I hope u r enjoying ur Saturday ! I am working and taking a break after a VERY busy day. As soon as I got to work we went yard saling for a few hours. I got a brand new -ish cat/pet carrier—one dollar—would have been almost $40 new at teh store, so score one for me ! I also got a quilt for three dollars and a little wooden bowl to put jewelry in. I spent a whopping $4.25 SkinnyChris would be so proud of me. If only she were here to read about it I miss her. . . Then we came back and made this awesome cold veggie pizza appetizer that everyone here loves—we did this for about 3 hours ! We made a hole bunch of them for here, the other group home and for staff. It is corssiants, cream cheese, miracle whip, dry ranch mix, broccoli, cauliflower, green onion and cheddar cheese. I ate four squares of it for lunch and it is so tastey ! The people from the other group home came over for a few hours and we just made the food, ate it and they visited while we cooked and lceaned up. My residents were a REALLY big help, the other house, not so much. I run a tight ship but they enjoy bveing here and doing stuff like that so it is pretty awesome. I still have so much office type work to do but I am going to do it ALL tomorrow. I have to get caught up because my vacation starts next week. I also have two papers to write for school by Monday. I suppose I will do that tomorrow night… I dont think they will be difficult anyways. Maybe I will start one tonight… Just not sure yet. I didnt get on that scale this morning—YAY for me ! I am gonna stick to only weighing in on Fridays — I WILL be strong I hope u r all having a great weekend and making good choices.

Good Morning, Buddies Well, I was thinking I was just going to maintain this week. I got on that scale EVERY darned day this week. Just one time, but every FREAKIN’ morning. I am back to only weighing on Friday morning from here on out… So, I was 192 last Friday morning. Then, over the weekend, I went up to 196, then to 194 Monday, then 193 Tuesday and then 194 Wednesday. Or was that Thursday? O well, u get the picture Well, this morning, I woke up to TOM being here. Thanks, Tom, for waitng for my Icky Doctor appt to be over…. Nope, he didn’t wait. He showed up BRIGHT and EARLY this morning. So, I guess when I get to the doctor I will ask her if I can just make the appt or a physical or what she wants to do … So, the scale was, despite my MANY high days last week, at 190 this morning This made me VERY happy. No, this (present tense) MAKES me very HAPPY ! I have only two more pounds to reach my THIRD mini goal of 188, or 90 pounds down ! ! ! I have set all three of my mini goals in 30 pound increments. I can’t believe I am almost to 90 pounds down. Holy crapola ! ! ! I seriously dont believe it, I just dont. But I see pictures of myself and I see the clothes that fit on my body so it must be tru… My mind has serisouly not caught up yet. I know that TOM screws with the chemicals of the old mind. I mean, I knew TOM was coming cause I had an increased appetite all week, I looked at myself and saw FAT FAT FAT and felt like a damned BLOATED Billy Goat ALL week. I knew it tho, so I tried my best to remember it was TOM screwing with me. Sooo, RB. Neverending Story, lalalalalalalalalalala. Yes folks, that is correct, I have brought him back from the recycling bin, apparently. . . I was doing so well with not contacting him and I was sitting there Wednesday night and I got an email from him. Now, let’s keep in mind RB will be 32 in a week. He was so JUNIOR high. He wrote me an email thanking me for a citronella candle I had brought over there a few weeks ago… He already thanked me for it and I reminde dhim of this and explained to him that he doesn’t have to hide behind a silly excuse like a citronella candle in order to have a reason to talk to me… He agreed, and said he did want to talk to me… Blah Blah Blah. He is sooo predictable… I knew he would be calling, texting or writing me an email soon. When I dont call him for awhile, lo n behold, he comes calling … So, basically, we had a BIG falling out this past week. And this was his way of finally talking about it with me. Basically, I had my feeling s SERISOULY hurt by him and I said some REALLY shitty things to him. I mean, REALLY awful. THings I didnt mean and things I NEVER should have said. So, I apologized immediately after I did that (that was Sat night) and again Wednesday night. I explained to him that he knows I am not really the kind of person who would say such awful things and that I am always nice to him, saying things to make him feel BETTER, not worse and that I never want to hurt his feelings again, friends or not. He also apologized for how he behaved and said that he doesnt want to hurt my feelings either and that he knows how nice I am to him and how sorry he was for being an asshole and said he hoped that we could still be friends. I told him yes to friends but that I wasnt so sure we should try any more than that cause things seem to get kinda crazy between us (uhm, namely him ) when we try more than that. So, I went to my friend’s lastnight and hung out on her deck and RB ended up coming over after band practice with my friend’s boyfriend. We got along beautifully and it was NORMAL. Thank you, Lord ! Literally, I thanked the Lord I dont even kno what I want fro RB. But I kno that I enjoy his friendship and it wa skilling me to not talk to him. That is new. I used to go months without talking to him… So, of course I stayed over there and he just brought me back to my car at our friends’ house on his way to work. I dunno. I am just going to take it easy with him and not call him or text him but let him come to me. I want to see if I REALLY truely like him like that or if I just like the attn or what… I am not in a BIG race or anything so we shall see. I kno one thing, I am DONE with the drama of last week. I still havent decided who it was, whether it was him, me or my ex bahahaha. Maybe a little bit of all… And i havent mentioned that I said something to my ex (not about RB specifically) about me seeing one of his friends… That is another blog… I have blabbered on for far to long here and I dont even kno if this blog makes any kind of sense O well, it is mine, so I can do wat I want, right ??? Well, so far just coffee today. I told my mom I am going to go by her house after my doctor’s appt and we are going to go out to dinner. Wander what we will have ? Probably Mexican, bahahhaha ! Have a LOVELY day, buddies. I work Friday-Monday this next few days and then only work Wednesday and Thursday after that and then have 8 days OFF ! YAY

Good Morning, Buddies. Just a short one cause I have been crabbing about the scale this week. Next week I am back to only weighing on Friday. I hopped on the scale this morning—191—so it no longer is all the way up to 196, 194 and 193 ! YAY ! I drank a TON of water yesterday cause I just knew I was bloated and needed to flush out the yuck so that is just what I did and spent most of the night in the bathroom… So, if nothing else, maybe I will have still lost this one pound by tomorrow morning’s weigh in. And if not, a maintain would be awesome in  my book after a handful of high days last week. Have urselves a fantabulous day, Buddies

Hi Buddies. I got on the scale again this morning. Back up to 194. TOM MUST be on his dreary little way. Not that I dont want him to come… Cause I DO ! Just not before my doc appt Friday I went to dinner with my BFF lastnight. I ordered a grilled chicken sandwhich and a side salad. I saved the gigantic bun for my pups to share when I got home. I took the lettuce, tomato and onion from both my plate and my bff’s plate and cut it up and added it to my side salad to make it bigger It was REALLY tastey. My avg calories for this past 7 days so far though is around 1600 and that is NOT losing over 2 pounds kinda calorie levels at this stage in the game for me… I am just looking for a maintain at this point. Come on 192, come back to Mama Now I know why I quit the everyday weighing thing. Sheesh. I am going strong with the not contacting RB. Lasttime I texted with him was Sunday morning after I said the regrettable things… My ex is coming by my house today. He said he can either more more stuff today or weedeat my backyard that looks like a jungle. I think I am choosing the weedeating cause it REALLY needs it. I mean, it is THAT bad. I am ashamed of it and so THANKFUL and glad I have a six foot tall privacy fence that no one can see through … It is a jungle out there, people, seriously. Well, school tonight—will just be listening to other’s presentations as mine are completed with A +++’s and then I have two small papers to write and turn in by the 29th. He is going to tell us tonight if we have to drop them off in person or if we can just email them to him. I am hoping for the email thing Well, i hope you are all having a great day and are making good choices ~ thinking of you all ~~~

Good afternoon, Buddies I think working half the weekend threw my whole knowing what day it is right out the window. I feel like it should be Wednesday but it is Tuesday… Hmm, I am glad for that cause it gives me more days of doing well with calories before weighing in on Friday I know I have been doing really well for over a month at only getting on the scale one time a week but after all those high days last week, I have been allowing myself to hop on each morning to see how I am doing at getting back to where I was Friday morning at 192. I was at 196 Sunday morning. Monday morning I was at 194 and this morning I was at 193. So, the BLOAT is coming down, thank goodness. I think TOM will be here very soon cause my bloated and fat feeling is here as well as my appetite has increased the past few days. I made a well woman’s exam for this Friday so I hope TOM stays away for a bit… I have not had one since probaly 2001. Terrible, I know. I also want some lab work don cause I am getting lots of charlie horses in my legs, almost every morning/night when sleeping. I got a potassium supllement but I forget to take it with one meal each day. I am going to take it now since I just ate lunch… OK, got it bahahaha I am feeling much more like my happy self today. I am wearing one of my new shirts and on track with eating today AND school is ALMOST over for a month so YAY ! ! ! I am still, 2 days later, feeling the muscle pain from the weed pulling I did Sunday evening. Seriously, my hands hurt, my arms hurt and the back of my thighs hurt ! BAD ! but it must have been some good exercise… Well, I hope you are all doing well and making GOOD choices