Becky Boo’s Weightloss for LIFE

Hi Buddies I have been so busy. I am addicted to facebook and I am BARELY on there ever even… Sometimes from my cell while at work or before bed… I need an internet fix for sure I have brought work home with me tonight and I HAVE to do it. No exceptions. I finally got my October work schedule done today. I have been having SERIOUS staff issues and I dont even want to go into it but I am pretty sure it can ONLY get better. And now I am VIRTUALLY knocking on wood I also need to go to the store something fierce and plan to tonight. Have bills to write out too… Ahh, the “to do” list… Also doing laundry, just did litter boxes, spending time with my pups, who are feeling VERY neglected at this point as well… I have Friday off, then work Saturday, have a reception Saturday night, then off Sunday, work Monday, school Monday night and off Tuesday! Whew! I am going to blink and October is going to be gone too! So, my weight was 186 Friday, 184 Monday, 185 today (had sushi and soy sauce for dinner so not suprised) and I am hoping for maybe even 183 on Friday. We will see. I am at a little over 1000 calories so far today. I still have plenty of calories left for dinner, just not sure yet what dinner will be… I went over  a few hundred on Monday but was just under yesterday. We shall see… XOXOXO

Really quick cause I am at work… I have been so busy busybusy both at work and in real life. No time to barely sit down. I weighed in on Friday to a 186… But by Monday the scale was back down to 184. I took my little weeks vacation from counting and logging calories and restarted Monday in full affect. I am hoping for a loss this week—wanna see that 182 again I will be off Friday and will be able to catch up on here then. Hopefully sooner, tho! I miss EVERYONE ~~~ XOXOXO

Hi all! Well, today has been somewhat better than yesterday. I am stil stressed at work but I am feeling better about it. my boss is going to come meet with me to deliver the disciplinary actn i have to dish out. This makes me feel so much better to have support and a witness cause this chic is not right lately… I had a GIGANCTIC yummy and delish salad for lunch. I am not kidding, It was huge: lettuce, tomato, artichoke, banana peppers, cheese, roast beef, some other meat I cant remember, croutons, a few crackers, a tiny smidge of cheese spread, onions and if there was more besides the oil and vinegar dressing, I cant remember. I ate the entire thing and feel nice and full. not stuffed, just comfortable. Whew! I have been uuber productive here at work today. I have to be. We have to meet our service goals and document or the state doesnt reimburse us for our service. My goal doubled to the state budget crisis so I am working my arse off here as of late. Makes me irritable and tired but I am trying to be positive! life is for living, not complaining, right So, Jeff asked me to his parent’s house for his sister’s birthday dinner on Sunday when I return from the wedding out of town… This makes me nervous. I have not seen her in years, maybe 7-8? it has been a long time. I am so not used to datign someone whom i already knew their relatives. it is so weird. I have been friends withis brother for years so that part is easy. His sister is married with a school aged child and a baby. I just feel awkard about it. I dont know why, I just do. So not like me. I need to get over it and just go. I told him if he wants me to go, i will. He was so shy and funny about asking me too. He likes to beat around the bush… First he randomly asked me what time i woudl be returning Sunday from out of town. Then, almost an hour or so later, he said, well the reason I am asking when u r getting back is cause my mom called and said they r making dinner for my sister’s borthday Sunday and she said to, “invite Becky.” I asked him if he wanted me to go and he said yes. He said he really wants me to meet his nieces! So cute, I think. he is still concerned that I dont like his sister. I assured him AGAIN that is not the case, that I just havent seen her since we were like 22 or so. Maybe longer. Anywho, he is still crackin me up with his anaologies about our relationship. First it was a “path” we were on. Lastnight he referred to us as “climbing a ladder!” Bahahahah! He kills me with it, he really does. Yet he doesn’t call me his girlfriend… I am practicing restraint in not texting him. I am a texting addict, for sure. So yesterday when I hadnt texted him by 1 pm, he started texting me. Then after work (he gets off 2.5 hrs later than me), I didnt call him or text him and he finally was like, “what are you doing? let’s hang out.” I told him later I was practicing not texting and stuff all the time and he goes, “I was wondering, I was like, what is this chic doing? Where is she?” Hahaha! And then, of course, he said to keep up the good work! Ha! and I am doing great with it today. I have been so busy, no time to bug his arse! I have been getting nice and tan in order to wear my skimpy black dress Saturday to my friend’s wedding. I am getting excited to go. I will try to get pix to share with you all Well, I am going to read some more blogs. Will be weighing in in the morning. I doubt I will lose but a maintain hasn’t made me cry yet! And a maintain on no counting calories just may motivate me to do better~~~XOXOXO

Good Evening. I am still not counting calories. So I will list today what I have had. One cookie (small), coffee with creamer, popcorn, lo fat cottage cheese and reduced fat wheat thins, ceareal, two tblsp peanut butter, approximately one tblsp honey, cheese squares and green giant veggies with some parmesean sprinkled on top. We will see how it works out for this week with the no counting/logging thing. I really don’t want to start doing it again. I am starting to feel nervous tho. I think I am just having a stressful day so who knows. I am really tired. Sorry I am so lame today… XOXOXO

Hi Buddies. I was off work today instead of yesterday so I could get my brakes fixed. Jeff met me at the car place after I got off school lastnight and I left it there to be repaired today. They had it done by noon which I thought was pretty sweet. I got a super cute jacket for fall at Target today. I had to go there to get a wedding gift for the wedding I am going to Saturday out of town. I got a super short and plunging neck line black tank dress to wear to the wedding. With high heels… O Lordy. I dont feel lik emyself in it at ALL! my friend Mandy is going with me. Jeff has to work so, his loss He regrets not asking off now that he has seen the dress Hee Hee Hee. He and I are doing really well and I am VERY pleased with this. He called me a few hours after he dropped me off to pick up my car to see where I was cause he planned to come over and mow my yard and weedwack before the rain! How sweet is he? I think I am keeping him. I have not logged calories since Friday still. I dont think I am going to go back to it you guys. I think I am doing well so far without it. It is liberating. I still think about it but I am not OBSESSED with it. And AND AND—the scale, even after eating today—is saying 184 this evening. That means it just may be going BACK down I sure hope so… I would really just like to see 182 again on Friday morning. Then I can move on down!!! I am having a SERIOUS carpal tunnel flare up today. My right wrist doesnt want to open doors or turn steering wheels or grab wallets  out of handbags without feeling as if someone is ripping my arm off. Grrr! I need to head to Wal Greens to find something to help with it. Not sure what dinner will be. I still need to think about it. And I am thinking that LeRoy must have just raninto something outside and got a bump cause I looked at it better in the sunlight this morning and it appears he has a scratch to go with the lump so I am thinking he was rough housing and that it is not a tumor or something… I tend to over react when it comes to my babies. But sometimes it is serious so I just never know… Take care buddies. XOXOXO

Hi everyone Monday is half over and I still can’t believe it is Monday already ! I worked Saturday and then went with Jeff to my hometown to this drunken Street Festival they have every year. Loni, did you go to the Italian Fest? It is really a highschool reunion for about, oooh, I would say 30, 000h people I saw many people I had not seen in a long time and a good time was had by all! Jeff was super great that night and he and I had loads of fun together. Sunday was pretty much a half lazy day and half cleaning day. Then Jeff and I made dinner together. Me: chicken taco salad and him: beef nachos. I coudlnt eat much of mine. I dont know why. I had lettuce, chicken I grilled and shredded, sour cream, french dressing, cucumber, tomato, onion, kidney beans and a few dorittos. I didnt even eat half of the salad I made. I finished up my laundry last night but have yet to do my homework for today. I dont have to turn it in today but I will most likely finish it here at work. Or I can turn it in next week with no deduction in my grade. Not like me to do that tho, so I bet I do it after this I am doing fine with staying on track with my eating and calories. I am going on day 3 of no logging calories on livestrong. I am TIRED of it. I feel like a slave to this weightloss/calorie thing. I got it. I don’t think I need to use it anymore. It has started giving me anxiety, worrying about logging them and servings and on and on and on. I am just going to keep writing what I eat down and see how that goes for a while. I am ready to be “normal” so no more logging. I just may be able to report a loss this Friday. I am feeling really confident about how I am doing. I would like to get a little closer to that 100 pounds down this week! I think I can, I think I can I think I can … I know I CAN! On another front, I found a lump on my great dane lastnt. I dont know what it is but it scares me. I am going to give it a few days, see if it heals and if not… to the vet to see if it is something more serious. I hate to think the dreaded C word. Please let it be nothing… Ok, think positively, Becky! I hope u r all doing well, buddies  

Good Morning, Buddies. Scale said 185 this morning. I am NOT suprised. I ate a crap ton of sodium all week, esp yesterday. I have been so hungry and I need to plan ahead better. I know what to do so today I am BACK on track. I am going to lower my calories back down to around 1500-1600 and get my body used to it again. I cant gain another pound. I will NOT go above 185. This is my wake up call. 3 weeks ago I was at 182 after two weeks of 3 pound losses. Now I basically have erased that effort. I am on it today. I will turn this around. I sent this GIANT bag of Wonka candy to work with Jeff cause I can CLEARLY not be trusted with it as I have proven to myself. I am going to to grocery shopping today and get good, healthy foods so that I dont resort to canned soups full of salt and garbage crap that just fills me with nothing good. I am GOING To get back in this game. I will update my tracker to reflect my gain and I will REMEMBER what I do NOT want to go back to. I also need to stay off that scale each day but Friday again. Ok, I am in THIS No more excuses. I am watching the Biggest Loser now. I had DVR’d it cause I was at my parent’s when it was on this past week. Everyone, please have a FABULOUS Friday! XOXOXO ~~~

Well, I am not even sure where the time goes… Tomorrow is weigh in day again. I have been on the scale a few times this week, tho not today. Yesterday it said 184. I had a plan to do really well today and, while I have not gone over, I have eaten all salty crap and garbage Willy Wonka candy. Grrr. My tongue and belly r mad at me due to all of the extra salt and sugar. I am giving the candy to Jeff tonight to take with him to work! I think tomorrow will be another maintain. My body is liking it at 183 and I have been hungry for two weeks now. I am finding it hard to keep my calories much under 2000. My body is really liking the 2000 calorie range. I can tell u tho, since I up’ed my calories, I havent been getting those leg cramps nearly as often. No more everyday. I think my body was telling me something, I really do. Anywho, I guess if my body likes it here, I will take my time. I am still logging everything I eat and drink and I am still not eating gaining weight amounts so I am ok with that. My original goal weight was 175. Then I moved it down to 150. I just changed it to 160. I have laundry and stuff to get to so I am going to run and do that then I will hop back on later. Thinking of all of my WONDERFUL buddies XOXOXO

Hi Buddies. I cant believe I havent blogged since Saturday night !??!?!?!?! What the FRENCH? I have been a busy bee. Saturday night was great. I had dinner in STL with the fam for my dad’s bday. Then I met Jeff and we went to his bro’s bday party. I met his parents, it went VERY well and his brother’s party was awesome. I got stepped on at some pt and my foot is bruised, swollen and hurts but is healing, I think It was a high heel. I had flip flops on. Never a good combo… Sunday I drove FAR away somewhere in the country in Missouri to a fam reunion. I stayed a few hrs then left. Jeff gave me this awesome chair for my living room that matches my couch so I helped him move it over then he left and I rearranged my living room. After that he and I went to our friend’s house for a few hours and sat on their porch. I was so sleepy so we didnt stay too late. Monday I worked allllllllllllllllllll day then went to school ALL night and then went to hang out with Jeff at around 10 to watch a movie. Today I worked and then soon here I am headed to my mom’s cause my grandma is staying there all week then after that I am headed over to Jeff’s to watch Son’s of Anarchy. I am doing well with calories and hope to see maybe a one pound loss this Friday. We shall see. I would like to at least get this pound off that I regained and have held onto this past two weeks. I work til Thursday this week, then I am off Friday, work Saturday, off Sunday, work Monday and am off Tuesday. I think that is fun, actually. Well, I hope u are all doing well and making fantastic choices ~~~ Unfortunately I am in a hurry and wont be able to catch up at all!

Good morning, Buddies ! I am sooo glad to be off this weekend. It is BEEOOOTIFUL here in the STL. And I am OFF of work ! Busy weekend tho. Today my Grandma, Aunt, Sister and bro n law come into town. We will have dinner out for my Dad’s 63rd birthday then I am going with Jeff to his brother’s birthday party. He informed me lastnight that he finally told his sister about me (she n I graduated together and they r really close) and he hoped that she and I got along cause he is very close with his fam and yada yada yada. I dont know why he thinks I dont like  her. We met in Jr High and always got a long and had many mutual friends. I just havent seen her in 10 years or so. She and I both went away to different colleges and she married her man young and moved to Ca and they had kids and I never really saw her again. I have no beefs with her, tho. And I am also going to be meeting his parents, too… Now I met them in Jr High when I would go to their house with his sister or she would get picked up form a slumber party or something. But I have NEVER met them met them, ya know? This shoudl be interesting … It is kind of exciting … I made Jeff homemade buffalo chicken pizza lastnt. He LOVED it. I ate one piece and it was delish. It is no easy task making that tho. Worth it. Yummy and it made him happy Things r right where I wanted them to be with him. I think sometimes when I am driving to work that this must all be a dream, that all my happiness can not be real, valid, that I am a fake and then I am like, Becky! Snap out of it! My ex and the way he treated me and the way he made me feel—made me feel like I didnt deserve to be happy, to have nice things done for me, was not capable of being loved and wanted. How f’ed up is that? My mind still has a lot of unraveling to do. U kno, I was always worried that when he and I broke up that I would be incapable of loving and caring for someont the RIGHT way again? That I would go on being cold and bitter and hateful? It is so the opposite. While I can most def be a sarcastic smartass on a regular basis, I make an effort to be sweet and kind to Jeff and my friends and fam each day. Sometimes no effort is even required. Gosh, I am so happy. Happy to be me again. Happy to be in a good place. I used to fear death cause I was so worried it would come when I was miserable and I would have wasted my life and yearned for eternal youth just so I could try at happy. Now, I dont fear death but I look forward to a long life so I can share my happiness and love for a long time. It is so amazing how much one can change in a year. It just keeps getting better. I still say if I could bottle this up and give it away, I would. I wouldnt charge—I would GIVE ~~~ cause how I feel, everyone should feel. I want it for everyone. All of you. This is so much more than about losing weight. It is about LIVING. Happy Saturday u lovely buddies ‘o mine XOXOXO